when i asked you if you'd move there, and you said you'd like to, i felt this strong wave of envy and jealousy sweep over me. it was ugly i know, and a momentary weakness i'd like to believe, for i know that all i want is for my friends to be happy. but it was still there for awhile nonetheless.

but then thinking back on it now.. i wonder why i felt that actually. i too can go wherever i want.

all of a sudden i'm rather interested in reporting or documentary work. to travel to different countries, to see the different cultures, enjoy the differences [instead of complaining -rolls eyes-].

and then what's so wrong about loving a totally unique and different culture? i'm tired of defending it.

on a separate note, japan & korea were awesome. the fantastic culture, shopping and eating in seoul :DDD ming and i ate 5 times a day. teehee. and then tons of snow in hokkaido :D SNOWBOARDING WAS AWESOMEEEEEE! hahaha, i somehow improved loads from e lat time. snorts. i told tsuki it must be the japanese food and powder snow. and she replied 'the whole of japan must be behind you' teeehee. so cute she is. but seriously, from falling, tumbling and sliding down the green and blue slopes in france, i was turning, whizzing and cutting my way down black slopes in japan [not to boast :p] hahaha. it was awesomely fun (: i've got my eye on a snowboard that i'm gonna get next season. whoopeeee! ps. my uncle rocks my world